I feel like that box cutter has legs
It moved from pocket to nightstand yesterday
I’ll take it back to work tomorrow
Yesterday my chest felt like anchors
And there was nothing to drown me in
I told a girl I loved her and the sky turned black
Started falling.
Turned into fog and crept through my window
Now it lays over my comforter and I tell myself I have got to stop smoking in here.
I feel dismissive too.
I am in the mood to forgive myself for everyone’s sins
I do not need anything but really want to be held by someone else’s eyes
Mirrors are so apathetic.
So careless.
But always there
Today I am not lonely
I am distraught.
I cannot believe how pathetic I am
How needy I sound
How lost I feel.
I have learned suicide does not save me from solitude
And I am nothing but a shell of a skeleton.
If you or someone you know needs help, please call or text one of these resources!
Georgia Crisis & Access Line (GCAL) – 1-800-715-4225, available 24/7
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline – 1-800-273-TALK (8255) also offers 24/7 connection with a trained counselor at a local crisis center, or Text “START” to 741-741
The Trevor Project – suicide prevention hotline for LGTBQ youth ages 13-24, Text “Trevor” to 202-304-1200 Thurs.-Fri. (4-8 p.m.) or call (866) 488-7386 – 24/7
